“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The ideas initiated this evening are good ones. Dinners out, and so forth. In fact, they are excellent. Both of you lean toward self-denial, sometimes too acutely. Ruburt will react against this more often than you, being born under his particular birthmark.

The spontaneous self when it did escape, you see, managed to do so only under circumstances where the explosive impulses shattered their way through. In the years between there was some considerable improvement in balance. When the situations developed which we have discussed, setting off the old conflicts, again you see, then the discipline idea was short-circuited back to the old compulsive behavior, though in different form, and with the old religious connotation of self-denial. The old fear of spontaneity returned, and the methodical attempt to deny subconscious impulses; the old feeling of unworthiness was also activated, and the body duly denied. Now this self-denial began in the Catholic home, and he was peculiarly prone to accept it. It was part of the old Catholic training, and he fell for it under a new guise. (Jane spent over a year in such a home while her mother was hospitalized for arthritis.)

I would suggest that you both in summertime indulge in physical activity in the yard—quick activity of a game variety. The fact that Ruburt begins to remember his dreams shows that the inner self is being allowed more freedom, and it responds to physical touch, pampering, denial, as the case may be.